Relationships are complicated. Sometimes they break like a glass. When a glass breaks, it will never be the same. It’s better to leave it broken. Let it be a learning experience.
We were together for 4 years. As the years passed, our relationship turned into a friend zone. I got dumped at age 27. He was my first boyfriend. A few months later, he was in a relationship with a different person. It is possible that he cheated and I didn’t care. I’m happy for him because I never loved him. I thought I did but I was wrong.
I was mad at myself. A majority of my friends were his. I had no one to talk to. I was 450 miles away when he broke-up with me over the phone. I stayed away from home for 4 weeks and deactivated all my social media accounts. Sarah, my friend, noticed something was wrong. Those 2 weeks were the loneliest and darkest times of my life. She called and we talked for hours. She convinced me to watch a Disney movie called “Frozen.” This movie saved me from the darkness. It taught me a valuable lesson. To love and take care of myself is a priority. I vowed to be single for a year and took the opportunity to love myself. When it was time to activate my social media accounts, I deleted all my friends that were his. Except for John, he understood what happened and I asked him a favor. To never mention his name. Till this day, John has kept his promise. I was willing to start all over and make new friends. My life changed forever.
During the year that I was single, I got hired at the Department of Veterans Affairs. I began to arrange payments to pay my school loans. It didn’t matter who broke my heart. Every day, I met new people. I made it a goal to make everyone smile. By making a person smile, little by little my heart began to heal and learn to love myself. After a year, I felt ready to start dating. I knew it wasn’t going to be easy because I have hearing loss but I felt ready.